In six weeks or so I will join, or I guess lead, a group of cool young people: “Molly Group Number One,” I am calling it.
(Lead? A group leader in this context is really a group follower.)
I am thinking of it as an action group and have the idea that everyone put a little money into a kitty which we have to agree with to do with at the end. My thought is that this will make money a kind of character in our group, just as it is in our lives and might offer some insight to those just starting their careers.
We’ll see.
Because of who signed up I'm sure it will be wonderful regardless, but I keep returning to this image of a pond and the difference between the clear water at the surface and the mud beneath. Like I say it is not a great image.
I'm not interested in stirring the mud just for the sake of causing difficulty or turning things murky. And I know that whenever you get into the depths you have to move towards shame and pain and sex and parents and doubts and guilt and the things we sometimes share but also the things we never share. This stuff cannot help but come to the surface and though I know I am not a therapist I hope for what rises up does so in my groups in a way that helps.
But beyond what’s difficult or unclear I also somehow mean the soft underneath that is fun and exciting and a little frightening to put your toes in . . . because they sink in, because you can’t see them below the water.
What is the psychological and spiritual and “helps me become a better swimmer” equivalent of that?